
I am feeling so anxious to be having twins. I would just love for my two little girls to be here right now. I can't believe how much my life has changed for the better. Before my life was going nowhere and now I feel like I'm standing in a brand new light. I couldn't believe it when I found out I was pregnant. I thougt to myself "not me, it can't be" but in fact God blessed me with two. I remember the day I found out. I was just going for a routine ultrasound (my first one though, so I was already excited). Me and my fiance are looking on the monitor at our little baby for the first time. She was so small, just a little peanut literally. Our eyes widened as the doctor said, " Well everything looks good, but there is one thing that concerns me". Our minds were raising trying to stay. "What is it?", I asked. "Well you see this little thing right here, it looks like another....". I said, "What, what is it twins" before he could even finish. "Yes more than likely!" We were so relieved it wasn't anything threatening yet finding out we were now having two was a little scary. I was in a shock for a while and just thinking of all the more baby items we would need. Wow!! I couldn't wait to tell everyone back home. This was a new adventure for me: being a new parent period, and going to have to do it with not just one but two. What am I going to do. I always think about whether or not I will be a good mom, whether I'll be able to provide them with everything they need, give them all the love and attention equally, whether I will like one more than the other. I just don't know but I'm up for the ride.
Hopeful Mommy

